Fucking Magic #14 (Digital)

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Fucking Magic #14 is about giving up on trying to be good, learning that being in integrity is not the same thing as being liked, and falling in love with the crazy girl I used to be who saved my life. It’s about the concept of home, estrangement, creating family, and finding roots as a survivor of child abuse. It’s about spiritual longing and the need for god. It’s about my decision to take part in ayahuasca ceremony and how I arrived at this decision as a sober alcoholic who goes to 12 steps meetings. It’s about what I learned in ceremony: the sacred irreplaceable singularity of every living soul, and finally seeing myself for the first time. It’s about major shifts in my understanding of sexuality, and major breakthroughs in my practice of polyamory. It’s about growing, and living, and being very much alive.